Why am I defining closure? Because I think I finally got closure to something yesterday. I may have briefly mentioned before, but before my relationship with H, I had been in a six year relationship. I ended the relationship and it just ended *very* badly. It was abrupt and we didn't talk for almost a year. At that time I felt like things went left unanswered and that I didn't get closure. Yes, I realize that since I am the one who called it off I shouldn't have needed closure....but I did. And I never got it. Until last night.
Last night, I went to a celebratory dinner with my family for my sister graduating fifth grade! (woo hoo... bring on the middle school drama!) We went into the bar to have a pre-dinner drink and who do I see? My ex's mother. Of course my parents and I said our hellos and caught up a bit... Not only did she say she missed me a great deal, BUT (wait for it) that she was waiting and holding out for me and my ex to get back together. news flash: I told her that would not be in the cards. Oh then to find out that my ex is in the restroom and eating dinner with her. UH WHOA...not prepared for THAT. Y'all I seriously went into panic I'm-shaking-with-furiousity mode. I ordered (and downed) a drink stat. When he came out of the restroom I literally could only word "hello"... and that was it. I couldn't force myself to say another word. I have fully moved on and couldn't be happier, but seeing someone who hurt me so badly and whom our last words to each other were just...BAD... was odd. They were leaving as we were coming in. During dinner we exchanged a few text messages and he apologizing for being (for lack of better words) a dick, and saying congrats on my internship and that he was happy for me and glad I was doing well and happy.
Anyways, just from that small amount I think I finally received the closure I needed. Closure is needed in almost every relationship that ends to some extent. It comes in different forms and comes at often very odd times. I'm not complaining though, I can now live my life knowing that I did the right thing in calling things off and live with no regrets. The end (for those of you still reading this dramatic event!)